Hello! My name is Nancy. Well, it’s my middle name, I always used because I like it better than my real first name. Let’s see, where do I start? Well, this is the month of December, 2014; I am 27 years old, I’m in prison, going on my second year. I have eight more years to go. I’ve been called a 5 foot 2, cute, blue-eyed blonde for years. When I was in high school, somewhere in Louisiana, I got into acting. I was in every play our school put on. I loved it and I was good at it, too. After I graduated, I paid for more acting classes. I wanted to be a full-time actress. It was my true ambition. It was my world!
Becoming a ‘Big Time’ actress is not easy. There is a lot of competition, a lot of rip-off companies, and it does help to know the right people (I didn’t).
At age 20, I found myself in some pretty good roles in various stage plays. You don’t make much money on stage but its fun and I hoped it would be a step closer to the world I wanted to be in.
At age 24, I was able to get into some rather cheaply made science fiction movies; another step closer to the world I hoped to live in! It was at age 24 I was told I had to take a part that required partial nudity. Deep down I did not want to do it but it could be a step closer to the world of acting that I wanted to be a part of. I took that role and I really hated it. I felt dirty and used, but it was a step closer to the world of stardom!
By age 25, I had done several movies that now included full nudity, movies that I did not like doing. Stupid, stupid me, I did them anyway. I was no richer. I was no closer to being Judy Garland or Bette Davis! I was just a 5 foot 2, cute, blue-eyed blonde, who took a little money to show a lot of body! I was sick about it. I got depressed about it. I needed something.
At age 25, I got what I needed. I got hooked up with a dope dealer and I started with pills, expensive pills, then expensive cocaine. I could not get enough, I needed it!
At age 25 I met a man on a motorcycle, a man who wore the colors of a biker group, a man who offered me a sweet deal on drugs, a man who later arrested me for drugs and for a small pistol in my purse. I was eventually sentenced to 10 years in federal prison. A world I did not like or want.
In prison, I do not tell my story of wanting to be an actress, although one lady recognized me from one of the sci-fi movies I was in. I convinced her the actress only looked like me.
In prison, someone gave me a salvation tract. It really touched my heart and then when I read how Jesus Christ gave up His life to pay for my sins, I cried, tears of both sorrow and joy! I began to study the Bible, especially the book of Romans. I placed my faith, 100% faith in the fact that Jesus paid for my sins! A couple months later, I found a couple of Con-Tracts at the Chaplain’s Office. God put it on my heart to share my testimony too. I’m not sure what I’ll do when I’m released from prison, but I’ll be doing things for God; because now I am part of His world. Be at peace.
“For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;” (Romans 3:23)
“For the wages of sin is death” (Romans 6:23a)
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved” (John 3:16-17)
“All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the LORD hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.” (Isaiah 53:6)
“For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him.”(2 Corinthians 5:21)
“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”(1 John 1:9)
“… The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand: repent ye, and believe the gospel.”(Mark 1:15)
And what is the Gospel…the Good News we are to believe?…
“Jesus saith… I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.”(John 14:6)
“Jesus said… I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live:26 And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this?”(John 11:25-26)
“Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”(2 Corinthians5:17)
“He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him.”(John 3:36)
Lord Jesus, I confess that I have sinned against God and am a sinner. Right now, I repent and turn from my sins. I believe that You died for my sins, were buried, and rose again the third day from death, that I may have eternal life through you. I open my heart and life to You now, and receive You as my personal Savior and Lord. I claim this free gift of eternal life, and thank You for saving me now and giving me a new life in You. In Your Name I pray, Amen.
(c) 2015 CON-TRACTs
Editor: Paul Bero, Michigan Prisoner # 192686
Artwork by: Anonymous Prisoner, Kentucky
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